goodbye

7th may

2007-05-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

not the best of days for me,
in fact it's probably one of the worst.
normally on days like these, i wouldn't like to say much,
but i thought for a change, i'd open up instead of bottling all my feelings inside

as foreseen, both papers were a killer and they were horribly done.
espcially A maths, which my instincts told me there and then that i was gonna fail.
and a lecture by mr ganesan right after the paper
confirmed my suspicion.

all the little things of today made it worse.
like the stupid bus driver who made such a hassle over my bus fare
and wanted to inspect my ez-link card to make sure i was a student,
just in case i stole the uniform.
that may sound absurd but that was exactly what he said.
"The uniform anyone also can wear one"
that's bloody dumb cause who in the right mind would steal a school uniform
just to save 10¢ or so?

but the thing that really affected me the most
is the fact that either you or i will have to leave.
and either ways, it's not gonna do me any good
but i'm hoping, even for the slightest chance,
that no one has to leave and things will stay the way they are.

6th may

2007-05-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

the toughest two papers tomorrow.
drats
wish me good luck, i'm gonna need as much as i can get ):

5th may

2007-05-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

the past two days of exams haven't been good at all.
the chinese paper was quite a killer
especially since i thought shuo (lock) was shan (umbrella)
and misunderstood the whole passage

physics, without a doubt, has to be my worst subject
22 marks worth of questions left undone
or scribbled with utter nonsense.
and i haven't counted in the mistakes that i made.
so its definitely a fail for me.

yesterday was good.
after the papers,
i went down to vivo to meet sihui and shusze to pick up some gifts
as well as to celebrate shusze birthday.
wenhui khai dan and chengxi was there as well,
and they joined in the celebration.
we sat by khai dan's pond (its the harbour actually but he calls it his pond)
and ate fries under the stars and played truth or dare.
stupid dares like shouting "happy birthday shusze" and taking photos with strangers
proved to be quite a comical scene and it made me laugh like crazy.
oh and the best part, river island was having SALE
so naturally, i couldn't help but pick up a shirt from them.
sometimes, i think they purposely have these great sales during exam periods
to distract us from studying.

anyway, today was also a great day.
studying session with sihui at the airport
the ride there was the best!
hide and seek on the mrt, and yes i do have a deprived childhood.
sihui has got to be the worst seeker ever!
we probably spent more time commuting and talking than studying
but still,it was quite productive, even though i only did 6 questions or so.
well to me, that really is A LOT.

and that's probably all the preparations i'm gonna make for this monday's paper.

another 4 more papers and a practical and it'd all be over

4th may

2007-05-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUSZE!

i'm far too tired to blog any further than that.
goodnight.

2nd may

2007-05-02T18:28:00.000+08:00

spiderman 3 yesterday was good.
though it lacked a solid story line, the action and special effects made up for it.
i thought i'll talk a bit about the story,
but knowing most of you haven't watched the show,
i shan't go round telling you that eddie brock is venom
and that harry osbourne dies in the end, just to spoil your show.

oopsie.
too late.
i just spoiled your show.
ain't i bad?

geography elective paper only lasted 45 minutes today,
but believe me, this 45 mins was the worst so far.
the paper was just so damn difficult!
and while i was waiting to hand up the script,
i calculated the highest marks i could get, and it tallied up to a mere 12 marks.
that's a fail, in case you didn't know (the paper's upon 25)

so since school for the day was over by 9am,
i had breakfast with wesley at coffee bean
and i saw that friend of mine i made last week.
as expected, he teased me about the stupid toasted mud pie
and asked if i wanted the sausages toasted.
funny chap.
i actually got a bit of studying done.
which in my case, does not refer to making notes and highlighting key points,
but rather opening the textbook and skimming through.
so hooray for that.

then once again, it was another round of winning eleven at wesley's place.
this time, a lunch was at stake;
first to seven wins, loser pays.
sad to say, i lost with a score of 3-7
since both of us have the "cant-lose" mentality,
we often came out with excuses like "i'm hungry, cannot play properly"
and "my finger pain" blah blah blah.
but fine, i decided not to be a sore loser and a meal is on me the next time.
oh also, i had one of those hunger pangs when i was at his place,
and i grabbed so much junk and literally gobbled them down
that it makes me feel guilty for making his place barren.
oh well, its not like he never did that to my house.

and what is it with this thing going round about me having a new girl or smth like that?
NO, i do not have a new girl.
and i didn't even have one to start with.
knowing me, if i did have one,
i'd have announced to the whole world and declared my love for her publicly.

and if you're wondering what about the previous post,
let's just say that's my little secret.

1st may

2007-05-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

hey stop it can!
you're making me go C-R-A-Z-Y
i hate it when you do it.
it never fails to make me smile,
and i'm telling you, one day my teeth are gonna fall off from smiling too much.
but you know i love you dont you (:

30th april

2007-04-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

2 more papers down, leaving me with 9 more to go.

exams don't really seem to bother me any more.
i'll just wait and see the results i get, then i'll decide what i'll do from there.
in fact, its come to a point where studying isn't in my timetable already.

today was a time of chillin at coffee bean with wesley.
while he was wrecking his mind out trying to comprehend physics,
i was shaking my leg and eating my brownie while reading the papers.
a perfect way of killing my afternoon (:
then it was off to his place for a few games of winning eleven
and yes, i won him,
well, once.
(wesley, i know i'm pro-ded okay. i told you i'll win it for her.)

its labour day tomorrow.
and while everyone else is probably gonna study their asses off,
i decided i'm gonna catch spiderman 3.
in fact, the tickets are already booked.

woah, at this rate i'm going,
if i do pass my mid years, i must be a GENIUS

28th april

2007-04-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

had a rough morning today.
orals didn't go that well.
don't wanna talk about that.

didn't feel like studying at all.

therefore i decided to spend quality time with my sister,
doing the thing we love, shopping.
it's pretty rare that we actually found time for each other,
and i believe times like these are going to be even harder to come by.
she decided to be nice and bought me dinner at kfc
unhealthy food, but still, satisfactory.

not exactly a fruitful trip in terms of buying,
since i only bought a shirt
but it was a great time of bonding with her.

27th april

2007-04-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

i've decided.
exams or no exams, my blogging continues.
that way, i've got another alternative for relieving stress,
not that i'm stressed up in anyway actually.

somehow, i can't really remember much about my english paper today.
the only thing i can recall is that i spelt itinerary as itenery
and i signed off with "reported by" instead of "submitted by".
well, its not that i don't know them, it just slipped my mind
and i only realised them when they said "pens down".
since i don't wanna get an irregularity report,
i decided it wouldn't be worth altering it for the sake of that 1 mark or so.

one paper down, only 11 papers and 2 practicals to go.

it was supposed to be a study session with sihui after school
but we ended up talking so much (which was a great thing)
nonetheless, i've got a covered a bit of social studies
but the best part is that i managed to squeeze out all the juiciest information from sihui!
like how she __________ about ______ ___ ____.
HAHAH

prelims orals for both english and chinese are tomorrow.
that means i've gotta wake up at 630
and i'll be deprived of my beauty sleep.
what a bummer.

25th april

2007-04-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

the realization that mid years are 2 days away does freak me out now
and to top it, i still haven't started studying.
well, but that's not new.
it's always the last minute studying that contributes to where i am today.
in fact, it really puzzles me how i managed to get dbl distinction for both my maths
a B4 for chinese and the most puzzling thing,
how i even passed combined science in my PPR.

then there was the selling of food during recess today.
what was supposed to be a disaster
turned into something quite successful.
in less than 10 mins, all the plates of nachos and sausages were wiped out completely.
so we did make quite a large sum of money,
which of course would be contributed back to our school.

selling nachos tomorrow, so remember to buy from us!

i could really go on and on about all that has been going on,
just to escape the studying
but i guess, i'll keep that for after the exams.
in fact, no more blogging for me till the exams are over.
it's time to get serious

23 april

2007-04-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

6 hours straight of prison break yesterday
made me have a really weird dream.
i dreamt my cousin and i were stuck in the prison
we broke out of there, and swam across this river
and hid in a haunted house.
and there were ghost and monster in that house.
yeah stupid dream, i know

i cant stand how season one ended.
they missed the flight and now they're running on foot.
really makes me wanna watch season two now,
but i promised myself no more tv till end of exams, so season two has gotta wait.

the lack of sleep last night really showed in school today.
i was dozing off in most of the lessons,
but it was only in chinese where i got to have a good 15 mins of solid sleeping.

i spent recess doing my geog
cause i didn't even touch my homework at all
a few of us exchanged bags in english,
and so i came home with a green crumpler that is humongous.
well, the last i saw, my bag was with charissa

okay, so this is the part where i'm supposed to say sorry,
but nah-uh.
not this time.
you'll have to wait my dear, it ain't over till its over.

22nd april

2007-04-22T15:41:00.000+08:00

i went for the adult service today,
cause i couldn't wake up in time for the combined one.
after church, we headed to subway for lunch (:
and then it was shopping with my sister.
i reserved this shirt at zara, but then i decided not to buy it in the end.

i've restocked the fridge with my usual mrs mcs pies and sara lee cake.
that should be enough to sustain me for this week.

daddy's cooking spaghetti for dinner,
and there's sushi too
so that's something to look forward to.

so now its time to get serious with my homework and studies.
mid years are in exactly 5 days time.

oh yeah, and i intend to complete the last few episodes of prison break today

21st april

2007-04-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

my stomach is growling
get me pizza and subway cookies and i'll love you all my life (:

19th april

2007-04-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

i believe that in life, there's always a balance.

and that probably explains how i can experience both
super highs and super lows within the same day.
while things in school aren't so good,
my daddy got promoted (:
and mummy cooked a 7 course dinner today to celebrate his promotion.
believe me, when she really puts her heart and soul into her cooking,
like today, her food always turns out marvellous.

this next part goes out to all chior dudes
(except for wesley who isn't involved in SYF. haha you loser)

i'll share this with you guys,
but i bet most of you didn't know i was posted to choir in sec 1
the reason why i chose to leave choir was because i thought it sucked.
and it didn't have much standard.

but i take that ALL back.
fairfield choir totally kicks ass
i've heard them sing, and i'm amazed.

never mind the fact that you've obtained a gold.
that's beside the point.
more importantly, you've done fairfield proud
and i think that's all that matters

18th april

2007-04-18T16:46:00.000+08:00

i started today feeling really bitchy inside me
and i don't know why either.
it's like i had a bowl of bitch for breakfast or something.

the day started off with the captain's ball team collecting our medals
and while i was up in front collecting it,
miss lim spoke to me about my name tag, asking me when the actual one would arrive.
well, for those who haven't already noticed,
i'm using the big one.
but i don't intend on changing it anyway, i like it the way it is.

just like i expected, i did very badly for my pull-ups.
actually, i did 12 pull-ups (supported)
but miss tan counted it as 3.
so there goes my gold.
other than that, i got As for everything else.

during recess, my class sold shepherds pie
as a form of an SIP (student initiated project)
and also to raise funds for the school.
it was quite a success in a way,
but i didn't get to sell .. .. ..... ... ... (go figure)

got back my chem paper, and surprise surprise,
i failed.
haha actually its no surprise really.
i kinda expected it.

my appointment got cancelled today,
sobs ):

so i headed to the pizza hut at clem with wesley, leon and jarold.
and that was where i went BERSERK.
i got so hyped up and then they started taking videos (notice it's with an S) of me
doing all sorts of stupid things.
and if any of these videos leak out,
that's the end of me.

so, to the 3 people who i ate lunch with today,
kindly keep the videos to yourself,
or i'm gonna KILL you (:
haha

17th april

2007-04-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

school was pretty much the norm today(with a few exceptions)

it really really makes me feel so loser-like
that i lost to jenisse in battleship during lit.
and she claims its her first time playing it too.
i'm still suffering from the aftermath of the shock, so don't mind me.

the last 15 mins or so during lit had to be like the most fun thing that happened all day.
i was just laughing my ass off with the usual goondoos
and boy, did it make my stomach hurt or what!

napha test tomorrow.
not expecting to get a gold this year,
since i can't do pull ups for nuts.

mid years are in less than 2 weeks,
10 days to be exact.
somehow, i think there's something SERIOUSLY wrong with me.
cause by now, i'm still not worried that i havent started studying.

things will look better tomorrow,
i'm sure they will.

well, with all that ranting off my mind,
i can catch a few episodes of prison break before i head to bed.

16th april

2007-04-16T19:53:00.001+08:00

rough day, don't wanna talk about it.

15th april

2007-04-15T19:46:00.000+08:00

i was flipping through today's paper,
when i came across the page of 50 different ways to cook instant noodles.
so i decided to cook dinner for my sister and myself
since my parents went out.
and believe me, it was good.
you'd be surprised how good instant noodles can taste after it's been cooked by me.

i've started watching prison break,
though i haven't finished with hanakimi.
i just couldn't help it.
and prison break is so addictive
that i'm gonna spend the rest of the time before i sleep, watching it.

13th april

2007-04-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

time spent with sihui and shusze at harbourfront was productive.
for a change, i finished my homework by friday,
instead of always leaving it till monday mornings.
walked around vivo looking at clothes,
and i spotted this awesome shirt(or rather, sihui spotted it)
that i'm so gonna buy.
sihui! buy for me pretty please (:

its comforting to know that i'm not the only one who hasn't started studying.
other people haven't started too.
so its not that bad.
still, i should really REALLY pick up my textbook
over the weekends and at least skim through it.

but for now, it's my weekend dose of dvds and junkfood

friday the 13th, bad luck day?
nah, who ever said so.

12th april

2007-04-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

i wrote a letter to you.
but just before i could give it to you,
i thought to myself, "Why do I even bother?"
so i took the letter, crushed it up,
and threw it into the bin.

school these few days have been pretty much boring.
and i've always been coming home to sleep after school,
or heading over to leon's place.

mid years are in about 2 weeks,
and guess what?
i havent even started studying!
i'll just scrape through it,
and get into S2E and study really hard then.

crap. i screwed up my maths, lit and eng test today.

9th april

2007-04-09T18:36:00.000+08:00

i live for days like this.

as simple a day as normal school
and a detour to bukit timah plaza with wesley and bryan,
it proved useful in taking my mind off the
usual hauntings from the uncertain future and never ending "what-if"s

if everyday were like this,
i'd be a much happier boy.

8th april

2007-04-08T17:11:00.000+08:00

the realization that your homework is still undone,
always spoil the mood of a good weekend.
as usual, i havent touched my homework at all
always leaving it for sundays and monday mornings.

drats!
I'm so disappointed in myself.
i planned to complete the entire season of hanakimi over the weekends,
but to my horror, i'm only half way through.
the one that i have isn't the complete season,
the rest are with my sister's friend.
so there i was, basking in glory,
thinking that i was down to the last disc.
this means prison break will have to wait a little longer.

didn't go church today cause i had a terrible headache,
and i've been sleeping the whole day.
might have to go down to bishan later to collect my new specs
which means lesser time to get my work done
argh heck! i'll just copy my friend's work (:
(i'm seriously hoping teachers don't read my blog)

my ambition

2007-04-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

dear travis,
i really hope you're reading this.
because one day, i'll surpass you

signing off
future rock star

7th april

2007-04-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

a moat stands in front of you.
you look down and you see piranhas and crocodiles swimming in it.
the bridge won't come down and you can't swim,
let alone jump in and kill the creatures in the moat.

if you get through that, a huge metal door awaits you.
made of reinforced steel, it is almost impossible to break through,
even if you have a chain saw.
not only that, the handles to the door are chained and locked.

and if by luck, you managed to find your way in,
booby-traps are set up to stop you from going any further.
with weapons that shoot out from the walls,
and floors which would open and swallow you up,
it makes you wish you haven't entered.

if you could beat all the traps and still end up alive,
good for you.
cause now 100 doors are staring in your face,
and only one of them holds the treasure.
enter through the wrong door and kaboom,
you face death.

let's say, lady luck was smiling on you that day,
and you guess the correct door.
so in the middle of the room lies the treasure chest.
you open it and what do you see?
a map that tells you where the REAL treasure is ...

no, it's not the latest ps3 game.
its an analogy of finding your way to her heart

6th april

2007-04-06T16:36:00.000+08:00

before i start about my day,
i've got to address something which has been bothering me.
how on earth does this thing look like me in anyway?

baoyue, it looks more like you please (:

lunch with my family at the dinning room
proved to be a really great time of talking and bonding
i love these kind of interaction with my family
where i really get to express my views and what's been happening to me of late
the food wasn't too bad too,
just that the portion was a little small

and i found out A LOT of things i never knew about
(but of course, i wont say them, cause it's personal)

just for today,
i'm gonna chuck my homework aside,
and really concentrate on watching dvds
so from now till tomorrow morning,
i'll be glued on the tv if you ever need me.

6th april

2007-04-06T00:25:00.001+08:00

back then,
I asked you if you believed, in a way, in telepathy.
your answer was yes.
and so was mine.

and it stills stays the same.

so right now, I'm wishing that somehow,
you know how I'm feeling.

4th april

2007-04-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

twinkle twinkle little star...

screw it.
i forgot the next line.
does it goes something like,
"You are better by death, get lost and smash the damn guitar"

3rd april

2007-04-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

i came home straight after school today,
and have been sleeping ever since.
that's because i couldnt sleep last night,
making me really tired today.

chapel service was really good today,
and the rest of the subjects were pretty normal.
somehow, my lit group found some way to escape presenting our project today
by saying that the project was with ben liew, who didn't come to school today.
but in actual fact, we haven't even started doing anything.
haha so that gives us more time to complete it.
half the time in lit today,
i was sleeping so my teacher didn't pick on me as much
and somehow, she bought the idea that i had a headache.

i've really gotta finish watching hanakimi by this week,
so i can start watching prison break by next week.

2nd april

2007-04-02T19:08:00.000+08:00

i forgot to bring my keys to school today,
and it caused me quite a lot of inconvenience.
for starters, i could not take out my textbooks from my locker
and i had to dump my books and valuables in my friend's locker instead.

and when i got home after school,
i realised no one was at home
and i sat by the doorstep like a homeless vagabond
for a good whole hour or so until mummy came home!

somehow, i managed to escape from all punishments and scolding
(like i always do) though i didn't complete my homework.
and i've got a cross-country re-run at east coast park this thursday
to make up for the other time when it rained.
and for the upper sec students who had already ran
and collected their medals (like me, who got 13th :D) ,
we're having our interclass games where i'll be playing captain's ball.
not really looking forward to it,
cause i really do hate sports and getting sweaty on a whole,
but it beats having to go through a whole day at school any time.

i've just eaten dinner, but i still feel so hungry
so i've decided to finish the tub of ice cream as desert.

1st april

2007-04-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

Happy April's Fool!

speaking of that, i got fooled BIG TIME by dawn today.
but i got her back in the end.
and also, i tried to trick my parents into believing that
i was in the police station,
but somehow they managed to see through that.

after church today
i went to coffee club with leon to get my homework done
because coffee bean was packed with people
and there wasnt a seat for us.
however, i only managed to finish my english homework,
and i haven't done the rest yet.

so off i go now, on the journey to complete the rest of my work.

31st march

2007-04-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

i just got home a short while ago,
and its been a really great day for me.
i'll make this quick so i can hurry go to sleep.

went for a move with vic, cass and her boyfriend.
watched the number 23
which is a really good show (at least to me)
though, cass and her boyfriend didn't seem to like it very much

then left to meet the guys at outram for some jamming.
but ended up making noise instead of music.
nonetheless, it was fun.

i'm like totally broke now.
i lost 50 bucks yesterday which i'm pretty sure it dropped on the bus
while i was opening my wallet.
i opened my wallet when i got home and i saw $1.75 inside.
haha what a joke

alright, i'm dead tired. goodnight.
oh yeah, tommorrow is april fool's day.
(technically, its today)

2007-03-30T19:00:00.001+08:00

haha i saw natalie chong today!

29th march

2007-03-29T18:41:00.000+08:00

its been confirmed.
i am my english teacher's favourite student.
it has to be.
she always picks on me, always.

we had a talk about our trip to kanchanaburi during the class contact period
but somehow, it's not getting me excited.
yes, i know it'd be fun cause all my friends are there.
but i'm so not gonna like it there
simply because i'm someone who can't live outside of my comfort zone
that's the reason why i hate camps and skipped OBS.
i'm so not looking forward to the trip in any way.

after school, i had lunch at subway with dawn and choo.
its my 4th time eating subway this week.
people must be thinking that i'm crazy to eat subway that often,
but like i've said before,
i can live on subway.
and as usual, lunches with them always make me happier person

on a random note,
my phone has been giving me problem of late.
it always turns off and restarts every now and then,
and sends multiple messages.

i've got a secret identity,
a secret love,
a secret life.
know me, try to read me, and you'll figure me out one day

2007-03-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

dear sam,
i hate you from the bottom of my heart
period.

27th march

2007-03-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

today, my english/lit teacher took my love for her
up to another level.
WOHOO!
she sent me out of class for 1 and a half periods!
that's like my newest record,
being sent out of class within half a period.
first i was made to stand,
and then i was made to stand at the corner of the class,
and then out of the class i went,
all because i was talking.

and, i love her so much, i tore up the worksheet and threw it in the dustbin.
i know, i'm so good at expressing my love for her.

other than that, school was fine.

subway lunch with dawn at holland after school
and at the same time we picked up presents for ppl's birthdays.

people must be thinking how i can eat subway so often and not get bored of it.
let me tell you,
to me subway is like HEAVEN...
ahhh... that sensation when you take your first bite out the the warmly toasted bread
sandwiching the juicy tender leg ham and fresh lettuce, coated with a layer of barbecue sauce.
mmm...
and to top it off, an oven baked cookie, that explodes with macadamia nuts
and white chocolate chips which literally melt in your mouth.
yummy!

and no i was not like terribly upset yesterday or anything,
just a little worried about my grandma's operation
which was suppose to take place today,
but has been postponed instead

other than having a soft spot for pretty things,
i always give in to sinful food.

2007-03-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

i just bought subway on the way back home to cheer myself up ):

25th march

2007-03-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

my cycling expedition turned out to be
a 2 hour trip around singapore,
kinda like amazing race
except i had no competitors

and at my final pit stop,
i won
1) a litre of water,
2) some mosquito bites,
3) ant bites,
4) and one peanut

but it was still worth it.

25th march

2007-03-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

today was a really good day.
just got home not too long ago.

after drums, i went to macs at west coast to get the remaining
e maths homework done with dawn,
cause i forgot to bring my textbook home.
and after finishing all my homework for the weekend,
i planned a little something for a special someone cause i got bored

and then, i went to visit my grandma in the hospital
she's been there for a quite some time already
and she's still as cute as before and still asks me the same question
since i was young, "you mei you guai? you mei you ting hua?"
which means, have you been good, have you listened to words (direct translation, haha)
anyway, her toe's gonna be amputated this tuesday
yeah, its sad.

following that, my family went to the jap restaurant at raffles town club
and its the first time we ate dinner together in the last two weeks
cause everyone was so caught up with their own stuff,
we hardly had time.
the food was pretty nice, but i loved the green tea ice cream the best.

after dinner, we sat by chairs outside the theater with some hello-pandas
and 70¢ coffees from the vending machine (which seemed pretty good)
and talked for a good hour or so about almost everything
it's been really long since we sat down and talked like that
so it was quality time spent with my family

to make my "what-seemed-to-be-already-perfect" day even better,
i received the best thing that i got this whole week,
in a form of an sms and it made me smile (:

2007-03-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

omg, i swear its like freaking C-R-A-Z-Y
crazy crazy crazyyy...

haha
it always makes me crazy, just like before
but if its true, i'll play it cool this time

i'm definitely gonna have the whackiest craziest dreams tonight (:
shit, my stupid smile is stuck on my face and it won't go away

23 march

2007-03-23T19:37:00.000+08:00

my studying trip with sihui and shusze at island cremery,
turned into a time of doing homework at macs
and it changed into a time of shopping at orchard instead

haha don't ask me how a studying trip became a shopping one.
but at least, i managed to complete most of my homework,
leaving me only with one e maths exerice.
i finally bought the pretty bag i saw last week
and i saw a wallet and shirt that i really want

finally, the weekends are here.
it's time to catch up on my hanakimi!
the show has finished airing on channel U
and i'm still stuck on the 3rd disc only

and i can't believe that's its been a year already.

21st march

2007-03-21T19:39:00.000+08:00

i decided to go for my second pe lesson of the year today
since it was the 2.4km actual run
so i kept the excuse letter in my bag and got changed up
and after skipping pe lessons for a whole term,
i still managed to get a timing of 9.08

i came home straight after school today
and i tried watching hanakimi
but i fell asleep after one episode and slept all the way till now
and i'll be going back to sleep cause my head's like spinning real bad

20th march

2007-03-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

i just used this new loreal facial wash(at least i think it is)
which i found in my toilet,
and it has this icy cold after-use feeling
that makes my face feel cold and nice
haha that was so random

anyway, the trip to pulau semakau was totally, i repeat,
totally USELESS
in case you didn't know, pulau semakau is some landfill area,
to put it more crudely, a rubbish dump

like why would i need to go to a rubbish dump
if i dont intend to be a rubbish collector in the future
it has like ZERO relevance to my life!
i found it more meaningful to sleep
instead of listening and watching some presentation
so i spent half the trip there sleeping,
and the other half, sleep walking with my i pod blasting in my ears

at least, we took some photos as a class
and the trips to and fro were fun
so it wasn't an entirely boring trip,
but i'll still stick with my stand, a totally useless trip
has to be the lousiest place for an excursion

came back to school,
had dinner with a few people
that really made my day better

and guess wad
i'm still gonna quit school and be a ROCK STAR,
someday...

2007-03-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

omg! my sister just came home with an italian blt meal from subway
finally, my craving has been satisfied.
thanks jie (:

aww.
suddenly everyone around me seems so nice <3

19th march

2007-03-19T20:54:00.000+08:00

you know last night after i told my mummy about my craving for subway,
guess what she did next?

nope, she didn't buy me a foot-long subway melt
or cheese steak.

instead she went over to coldstorage at rail mall,
picked up a loaf of baguette, some ham, lettuce
and made me a subway like thingy
i've gotta admit it doesn't taste as good as the one in subway though it was tasty,
but, it was made with love, and i enjoyed it a lot more
and today, she made sushi for dinney, yummy

still, i havent satisfied that raging desire for my subway.
wonder what's gotten into me.

followed wesley to lavender after maths remedial when school ended
but it was a wasted trip, since he couldn't get his passport updated
the trip there was a different thing though
cause our common factor took the same mrt as us
haha

so the two of us headed to coffee bean at holland
and we got our chinese compo done
okay, so he got his chinese compo done, while i gave up halfway
but i got my a maths done.
so it was a good time spent there

call me living in self-denial or childish
but i believe superheroes do exists

2007-03-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

i have a sudden C R A V I N G to eat subway!
who'd be so kind as to buy me a foot-long subway melt, prettyy pleaseee?

18th march

2007-03-18T19:09:00.000+08:00

i think i've wasted away my holiday
though i planned to catch up on my studies and finish my homework by monday,
i havent even completed them till now
let alone have time to study.

i don't really have anything to blog about for now,
but one thing's for sure,
i'm so not looking forward to school tomorrow.

school would be so fun if you took away the teachers and principals
and studying and exams,
only thing then, it wouldn't be called school.

well, of late, i've been hooked onto this stupid yet funny
taiwanese (or at least i think it is) drama called hanakimi
or hua yuan shao nian shao nu in chinese.
my sister has the whole season on dvd and i decided to watch it
since i got bored, and now i'm glued onto it (:

kat: yeah my tag board has some problem every now and then

vic: i so DO NOT HAVE an inner fattie UNLIKE YOU!

maple & kth : hello! yes leon says that everywhere he goes, we all know he's a rock.

dawn: tom tom (: don't lose tom again! let's go to night safari on your birthday and i'll bring along mr dino to scare the animals away!

15th march

2007-03-15T17:12:00.000+08:00

hello people, i just woke up from my sleep
yes, you saw it right, i just woke up
haha, i know, i'm a pig!

yesterday was like crazy man
we covered all 3 beaches of sentosa
and as boys of fsw,
we did all sorts of stupid things
like burying people
but its not the normal sort.

we buried lai zi jie really really deep
and made his sand body the shape of a girls
haha
and he was stuck there for a good hour or so

after like 8 hours at the beach,
we left sentosa and went for dinner
after that, we decided to go to the lan shop at cathy

the bus ride there was retarded
ever seen guys cam whore before?
haha thats exactly wad we did
a good half an hour or so, doing nothing but taking pics on the bus

we were stuck at the lan shop till 11pm
and i was so tired, i went to sleep the first thing we reached taqin's house
how did we ended up sleeping in taqin's house?
beats me!
haha i was sleeping on the bus while they were deciding on the place to spend the night

and this morning, i left his place
and headed home
i skipped maths remedial since i was still having that very same terrible headache
since i got to sentosa
but on the way home, mummy called me
and i met her for breakfast at macs

i took the house key from her
and went home to sleep at 10am and woke up only now

here's the funny part.
i took the key from mummy cause i forgot to bring my key
so knowing i would fall asleep,
i put the key in one of the shoe outside so she could get into the house
only thing, i myself forgot to tell her which shoe i put the key in
and poor mummy had to take out all the shoes to find the key
while i was in the house sleeping

oh well, i havent had a proper bath since tuesday!
eww, i know its sick!
haha, i'm gonna spend an hour or so bathing!

14th march

2007-03-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

yay! i've got a date with my soccer team at sentosa in a few hours time
its gonna be damn fun
and plus we're staying over (:
so i've gotta rush through the night to complete my e maths homework
cause i've got a remedial the following day.

today was spent with the 3 loveliest people on earth
i love them!

oh anyway i was looking up the dictionary on the net for the meaning of love
and this is what i found

1.	a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.	a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3.	sexual passion or desire.

4.	a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5.	(used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

6.	a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.

7.	sexual intercourse; copulation.

8.	(initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.

9.	affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.

10.	strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.

11.	the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.

12.	the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.

13.	Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.

14.	a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.

–verb (used with object)

15.	to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.

16.	to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).

17.	to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.

18.	to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.

19.	to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.

20.	to have sexual intercourse with.

–verb (used without object)

21.	to have love or affection for another person; be in love.

—Verb phrase

22.	love up, to hug and cuddle: She loves him up every chance she gets.

—Idioms

23.

for love,

a.	out of affection or liking; for pleasure.

b.	without compensation; gratuitously: He took care of the poor for love.

24.	for the love of, in consideration of; for the sake of: For the love of mercy, stop that noise.

25.	in love, infused with or feeling deep affection or passion: a youth always in love.

26.	in love with, feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of: in love with the girl next door; in love with one's work.

27.

make love,

a.	to embrace and kiss as lovers.

b.	to engage in sexual activity.

28.	no love lost, dislike; animosity: There was no love lost between the two brothers.

woah, to have so many meanings
i guess love is a word, that words cannot fully describe

13th march

2007-03-13T16:42:00.000+08:00

i took a walk down memory lane,
literally
and not much has changed,
except this time, i went there with a different purpose

12th march

2007-03-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

who knows how it feels to have fought so hard,
giving everything you've got;
all the blood sweat and tears
but to lose in the end.

or to be the catalyst of a defeat,
where i could do nothing but watch
as the team begins to crumble in front of your very eyes

can anyone feel the pain of having your loved ones taken away,
forever and never coming back
and you couldn't even see her for a last time
just one last time.

and to watch those you love around you are beginning to disappear
the agony of losing someone close to you;
it stains even after months go by
time does not heal

how does it feel to be me
where you can only being able to find your true self when everyone else is gone
after living half your life,
alone
in a house that is not a home

or to be the black sheep of the family
and live in the shadows
where even the brightest flame of yours
seems to be covered up by the the foreboding darkness

who can safely say they have the courage to anticipate
losing your dearest friends and brothers in time to come
it's inevitable

and yet, you see them facing troubles
but still you can do nothing to ease their pain
and you wanna share the burden with them
but seem more of a burden instead

though they are there,
they're never really there
though they say they know,
they never really understand
yet you cherish them so much
cause they're the closest to true happiness

the grief of watching the one you love
fade away is something words cannot describe
for everything you've ever done
you get back emptiness

no one can fathom the anguish
of being stabbed by words from the one you loved
so deep that the scars don't heal
and her words haunt you so much

you pretend everything is alright
but when you're alone and the door is shut,
you find yourself crying over and over,
until your tears run dry

the words play over and over inside your head
and the harder you try to forget it,
the more it haunts you
you try run away from it, but still, it never fails to catch up with you

i don't need words of encouragement,
or people to cheer me up.
i'm not broken or sad or emo,
its just being me; true to myself.

what i need is someone to understand me
and to put a smile on my face everyday of my life
it's all i ever wanted,
and it'd be all i ever needed.

10th march

2007-03-10T15:08:00.000+08:00

we were beaten, but not broken

yesterday was our deciding match against against GESS
and it was also our very last competitive match of the year,
that fsw b'div 07 will ever play because

we lost.
and our competition ended as of yesterday.

sometimes, putting in everything and all you've got
doesn't seem enough to get you where you want
but we never gave up,
we're a team of fighters

so after four years of training, everything came to an end like that.
was it wasted?
no
because i can proudly say that we grew from boys to men and
we've made history in fairfield as being the best soccer team fairfiled has ever had

i cannot describe how proud i am to wear that fsw jersey
and to say that i am part of this team
and my brothers in the team, they are the best people i have even known

and to the supporters
thank you so much
especially the netball team and those who helped in the painting of the banner and names
and to the two people whom i was watching the first half with

but really,
all of us are feeling fine already.
though we cried a hell lot then, we were able to laugh about it now
in fact, we spent the night at muttaqin's place to really unwind after the match

it was a heck of a fun time,
though most of it was spent playing the ps
and creating our very own soccer team in the game itself
we stayed up all through the night
and i slept only about an hour
so i'm really dead tired now

fsw; the greatest soccer team in the world

7th march

2007-03-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

i'm down with a throat and nose infection,
an injured ankle and hip,
eyes that run dry of tears,
and i'm this close to breaking

6th march

2007-03-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

more than anything else in the world right now,
i wanna go on to the nationals
yes, that's the only desire of my heart now
and that is out team's desire;
every single one of us.

it's a do or die situation tomorrow.
and i'm back in goal since nicolas cant play anymore due to his finger
but the thing is that, i'm not fully fit to play
honestly, my fever is making me feel terrible
even my eyes and brain feels hot

and the heat seems to give me headache every once in a while
my fever hasnt disappeared,
but i doubt i'd be seeing a doc

the odds are against us
their technically more skillful than us
their bigger than us

but we have something they don't have
we have a HUNGER and DESIRE to fight and win more than anyone else
and we have a GOD OF MIRACLES

if it means i have to fly to save the ball,
i'll jolly well fly

i'm psyched up for tomorrow's match
bishan park, you're going down

6th march

2007-03-06T15:26:00.000+08:00

i went to school feeling better
with a temperature of 37.1 degrees
but through out the day in school, my temperature rose to 37.7 degrees
this time, i didn't sign out of school cause that would mean
i have to miss more lessons.
but i did miss the chinese workshop after school,
which a letter from my mummy would excuse me from it.

so i'll take another panadol and go to sleep
if my fever still does not disappear after i wake up,
i'll go see a doctor
(i hate doctors)

5th march

2007-03-05T20:03:00.000+08:00

my fever has subsided to 37.4 degrees
but it still feels burning hot.
and my voice sounds horrible okay!
didn't go and see a doctor, cause i detests doctors
and all their eeky yucky medicine.
so i simply took a panadol and had some rest.

it sucks to be sick.
so many things you cant eat, like chocolates and ice cream
and when you're sick, even the yummiest food taste terrible
but more importantly, i missed so many lessons today.

also, i missed the match of fsw against st. andrew
we drew 1-1 with them
which isn't a good thing at all
from what i heard, the referee was super biased and we deserved to win.
but that's football for you,
just like how man utd didn't deserve to win liverpool
this means we MUST at least draw one and win the other
or win both matches to qualify for the next round
anything less than that, and our fate would depend on how the other teams are doing

i really wanna go on to the nationals SO BAD.
even if it means i can't go for the overseas service learning trip
but being my last year in fairfield,
i wanna create history as being the first batch of soccer players
to have proceeded to the nationals
i know we are capable of doing it.
we'll just do our best, and leave the rest to God.

i seriously hope i'll be fully fit to face bishan park on wednesday.
i promise i'm gonna put in my best and make sure we WIN.

crap it's tuesday tomorrow.
which means, i have to see my "favourite" teacher for 3 hours in a row, again.

5th march

2007-03-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

this is so dumb.
i went to school late cause i had a fever in the morning,
then i signed out of school after a mere 2 hours
cause my fever shot up to 38 degrees.
gosh, my head feels like its on fire.

i think i'm gonna die ):

5th march

2007-03-05T08:44:00.001+08:00

drats
i'm sick but i still have to go to school

4th march

2007-03-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

oh i forgot to mention how much my boyfriend totally rocks!
she's really the BEST alright!
she made me smile so WIDE while i was drinking my soup during dinner
people around me must have thought i was some retard who smiles at soups
did i mention my boyfriend totally rocks?

4th march

2007-03-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

gosh, i'm SO SO FULL.
i think my stomach is gonna burst if i try to put in even a sip of water
just came back from a buffet at royal plaza to celebrate my sister's A levels results
with mummy and my sister since daddy had some function
i'm so proud of her man!
4 As and an A2 for gp
that's like freaking power!
if i can get that, i'll be a genius

well, we wanted to go to pete's place for dinner
but they didn't serve buffet for dinner on Sundays
tried a few other hotels around that area
but they didnt seem very appetizing or served food we weren't in the mood for
so we settled for the restaurant at royal plaza.
though i was quite bent on ripping off as much as i can from mummy
and wanted a burn a big hole in her pocket,
i failed to really do so.
the total bill only came out to 124 (after the discount for UOB card holder)
for the three of us, which was pretty cheap
considering the food there was of good quality and rather nice
and the chocolate fondue was so tempting, i couldn't abstain from it
and i broke my "no-chocolate" fast (just after 16 hours)

i think i've put on weight within the weekend
with all that garbagey unhealthy junk i've put inside my stomach
hopefully, it'd all go off after this week,
since we have 3 matches lined up.

our first match for our 2nd round is against st andrews tomorrow
and we're so gonna kick their asses!
i know we can
but i'll be sitting out for this game since my hip still hurts
hopefully, i'll be ready for the game against bishan park on wed

i've gotta rush to finish my homework now

3rd march

2007-03-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

no doubt, man utd was lucky.
but nevertheless, a win is still a win
and stupid bryan knows i wanna call him to taunt him
and has made his phone engaged

anyway, i moved the dvd player into my room last night
so now i've got a mini home theater in my room
i'm off to watch my dvds in the comfort of my cozy room now.

i'll reply tags tomorrow

(bryan, please make yourself contactable so i can laugh at you)

2nd march

2007-03-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

i've armed myself with 3 dvds,
a tub of ben and jerry's
2 huge packet of ruffles
and lots of chocolates and coffee;
all ready to embrace the weekend

1st mar

2007-03-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

today has gotta be the most productive day of my life
never mind that i just got home,
the time spent was not wasted at all

for once, (nearly) all the lessons were interactive and fun
with an exception of english and lit of course
which we did things that are once again of no relevance
like summary writing
er... didn't we learn that in LOWER SEC?
i so cant stand her!
she always go on about how we students are no good
and often condemn us by saying stuff like,
"oh, i worry for you people. you're sec 4s and you can't even produce a work of this standard"
and she says it in the very condescending tone
with no intention of it being a healthy criticism.

anyway, my purpose is not to talk about her but my day

yeah, even the usual chemistry which i never seem to understand
seem so easy today.
and for once, i actually participated in the class activities
got back my my differentiation test,
didn't do well at all;
scoring only a measly 5/20, probably the lowest in class
but its very good wake-up call for me
and a source of motivation to study hard

since training was canceled,
(i didn't have any intention of going anyway, since my hips still hurt so BAD)
wesley and i headed to coffee bean at holland v to study
blackforest ice blended as usual

i got a lot of SOLID studying done
i finally understood what my chem teacher has been teaching all this while
and i'm somewhat looking forward to the next chem test.
got a strong feeling i'm gonna ace it

in fact the both of us we so motivated,
we actually went down to the popular at jurong after we were done studying
to pick up assessment books
and files to file our worksheets
and i spent about 30 bucks on them alright!

honestly, it feels good to have started studying early.
at least my mind is kinda at ease now
and it feels even better that i'm so organized and enthusiastic about studying
for the first time in my life

i only fear i may just turn into a nerd
but i'm definitely not gonna let this enthusiasm die down

28th feb

2007-02-28T20:00:00.000+08:00

daddy just came home with a envelope with my school's crest on it
addressed to: "Parents of Tan Wan Hao Darren Tanny"
my heart dropped.
i was thinking in my mind what i did wrong this time
but couldnt think of anything major that would cause the school
to mail my parents

then daddy suddenly said, "Good, keep it up"
inside the envelope was a card
which is some sort GOOD KID NOTICE
(which i never knew existed in my whole life)
given to me by my favourite teacher of all time, my maths teacher, Mr Ganesan
and it said something like this:
"Darren has been displaying much enthusiasm during maths lessons.... blah blah blah"

and the best part is that it is endorsed by Ms Elaine Lim,
my school principal,
the very same one who wanted to kick me out of school in sec 2 and 3

haha this has really MADE MY DAY :D

28th feb

2007-02-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

remember the super-duper ultra mega superbly difficult chem test
on organic chemistry, which i said i would fail
because i didn't study and had no idea what i was writing through out the test
and wrote nonsense for half the paper?

well, guess wad?
surprise surprise, i got a 17/30 (:
haha gosh i know that seriously sucks
but considering that more than half the class failed
and that i didn't expect to pass, it was quite a pleasant surprise

i just woke up from my afternoon nap
all thanks to kiefer
who called me just to play dota.
argh! i could have slept for an hour more

i've been coming straight home immediately after school these few days
and i think it helps a lot in getting my studying done
cause i get to nap in the afternoon
and in the night, i'm all fresh to study

the match on friday against st. andrew has been postponed to monday
so i'll be having normal training tmr and on friday
all we have to do is to WIN the next 2 matches,
and we're through to the semi finals
i'm trusting in God to help see us through

but, there's a flip side to it.
if we make it to the semi finals,
we'll be going to the nationals.
and the nationals clashes with our overseas learning trip
so we might have to give the trip to kanchanaburi a miss
which is something i so do not want to do
but it seems there's no two-way to it

also i realised something.
from the first day of school till now,
i've only attended ONE pe lesson
O-N-E
i never liked pe lessons
and somehow or another, i find a way to skip them
which is quite amazing, since my pe teacher is the HOD
and is supposed to be very strict.
good grief! now that i think about it,
i have no idea how i always manage to skip pe.
but i'll continue to keep it that way till the end of the year

alright, i'll blog until here for now.

27th feb

2007-02-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

fine, so i wasn't so serious today
i'll give myself ONE more day to fool around in class
then i'll be SERIOUS about my learning and participation in class

i just kinda fought with my sister
haha but it turned out to be rather comical
she was screaming and screaming her head off for a good whole minute or so
it was quite a sight
and i called her cute and she flared up
haha but things are alright now.
must be cause of her long day at work

i hate tuesdays
more than i hate mondays or any other day of the week
because i have to see my oh-so-favourite teacher for 3 hours straight
and i so LOVE the way she smiles ,
oh such joy it brings to my heart
*PUKE*
and i cant help but condemn her and rebut everything she says
eww, i so cannot stand her

okay, enough bitching.

2007-02-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

stewwpitt monkey alien
made me feel so lousy
but thanks to my zhu,
i can go to sleep SMILING with my teeth showing :D

26th feb

2007-02-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

as i was flipping through my school dairy in school just now,
i saw the date 30th april
which has "Mid-Year Examination" marked on it
and then on the date 20th aug
it has "Preliminary Examination" marked on it
further down, on 22nd oct
it has "GCE 'O' Level" marked on it

i took out my calculator and did some calculation as i got bored in physics lesson
and this is what i realised:

only about 2 months to Mid-Year exams
and about 6 months to prelims
and 8 more months to GCE 'O' Levels

(come to think of it, i didn't really need a calculator to figure that out)

that's really VERY FAST
i dunno how i got this enlightenment but i'm glad
God woke me up from my mindset that the 'O' levels are still very far away

believe me,
8 months is VERY FAST

so somehow after that, i got psyched up to study and catch up on my work
which i have really been lagging behind badly
but,
my motivation kinda died down
after i couldn't find a place and people to study with

so if you are gonna study,
please please puh-lease call me along alright?

drats.
plus, it only occurred to me now that i'm not doing as well in school as i thought i was

i probably flunked my physics and chem test
since practically half of the paper was left blank or scribbled with utter rubbish
i failed my previous social studies test
i haven't been getting my 'A's for maths like i used to,
most of the time merely scrapping with a pass

and i'll probably fail tomorrow's lit test as well,
since its not passage-based
and i havent even read the book
plus the time i spent doodling in lit isn't gonna help at all

so, i've made up my mind.
starting tomorrow, i'm gonna become nerdy and spend my lunches and afternoons
with textbooks and notes.
after today, it's gonna get SERIOUS

25th feb

2007-02-25T19:44:00.000+08:00

church today was friggin funny and awesome
the worship session was great
followed up by a skit by a few acs boys
which i don't know their names .
(i never really know ppl's names for some weird reason)

after church,
i headed back home myself
and lunched with myself ):

and now dinner is also on my own
but i'm kinda used to it
in fact, i quite like being alone;
it gives me a lot of space to think and all

hmm, how did i spend my whole day?
i cant seem to remember!
time just seemed to slip through my fingers
i only recalling going down to play soccer for a while
and nothing else

gosh, i wasted another like that

buttt...

someone owes me a date (:

25th feb

2007-02-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

Cause she made me smile
when the world all seems to fade
in the darkest corner where she has a place

but the strings just snapped
and i'm stuck in minor chords
the sounds produced it just ain't the same

i felt a rain drop
received a message on my phone
that says, "its just beginning"

broken hearts and bones
i've learned to love this lie
and clean up for this mess that i have made

though its autumn now
the leaves don't make a sound
and it feels like spring has just only begun...

Cause she made me smile
when the world all seems to fade
but the thoughts still live in me for another day

24th feb

2007-02-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'm really sleepy,
so this is gonna be quick

shopping today was great
got a pair of jeans (again)
and a new earpiece (finally)

gotta wake up early,
it's combined service tomorrow

23rd feb

2007-02-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIHUI!
hope you liked the balloon(:

and FSW are officially through the next round
for those who still don't know, it stands for Fairfield Soccer World.
basically, its our soccer school team

after resting for two matches,
i had to come back to play as a goalkeeper
omg
cause nicolas has a ruptured tendon(whatever that is)
and his whole finger is swollen
in mathematical form,
it'd be nicolas finger is enlarged by a scale factor of 3
ah lame me.

oh which reminds me, i screwed my maths test today
and my physics and chem tests on wed and thur respectively

well, we won 3-0 over clementi woods today
which means we topped our group and are moving on to the next round
and it also means i've gotta get used to playing as keeper
since nicolas would be out for quite a while

and as usual, i got injured during the match
i'm just so accident prone
this time, its the hip.
the guy literally kicked my hips cause he missed the ball
and it's swollen
gawd, i cant walk properly again

anyway, i so NEED a new ear-piece
the right side literally split into two
and probably a new wallet as well,
since mine was stained by liquid paper the other time

i'm so glad the weekends are finally here
i so NEED it
after my bath,
i'm heading straight to bed
cause ive got a big day up for me tomorrow!
shopping (:

21st feb

2007-02-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOSH!
i swear i could have just dammit fainted and died there la!

wesley and i met up after dinner to get so running done
so as to prepare for the up coming decisive match against clementi woods this friday
and also to lose that lump of flabby thingy which secretly sneaked into
my body during the past few days of visiting

so we ran round the lake at chinese garden
it started out fine, occasionally seeing a few couples making out
and the deeper we ran, the place got creepier
but we decided to run anyway

then we realised we were the only ones running
and there were hardly anyone

but what freaked us out was the sudden smell of burning incense
and the weirdo freak talking to a tree!
a TREE

and if you think that's bad,
we turned around and we saw him bowing down to the tree!
and the place was really haunting
the trees surrounding us looked like they had eyes and hands
and the lake around us turned brownish, like those where a crocodile would live in

half the time the both of us were screaming
and running for our dear lives
and the other half, we were clinging on to each other
while trying not to let people see us and mistake us for gays

but guess what
as we walked on, we saw what seemed to be like a DEAD END
and since there wasnt any light, we turned back and ran all the way back

but strangely, we took a different path back
and we ended up lost in the main road
after an hour of crazy talk and spastic running,
we finally found our way back to his house

stopped over at 7-11 to pick up some supper
and since we couldnt get any alcohol,
we bought the closest substitute; jolly shandy

so there we were,
two idiots sitting by the stairs.
freaked out by trees and mad people,
eating and getting drunk on jolly shandy

haha
BUT, it was fun.
so fun that we decided we'll do it again some time soon.
but this time, we're going past the dead end,
even if it means climbing over a fence or jumping into the lake to swim to the other side

and here are the long overdue tag replies:

neo: suiton you ah!
siewyi: yeah totally man. had great fun (:
kat: but ive stopped growing already so 184 for the rest of my life is alright
and it is sad that many family members were missing ):
dawn: haha give you all already la! dam sexy one okay? esp the one that got me and you!
nameless: that's so sad! but i dunno who you are
amar: same place, same spot. stars dont move till like a million light years
knth: so sad, mine drowned inside the ocean

i so NEED my sleep
over the past few days,
i havent been sleeping much at all
earliest being 230am

goodnight people.

20th feb

2007-02-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

i'm back in my home
after spending the last two nights at my cousin's place
the well deserved break from school is finally over
the break from school has been so great

choo's birthday celebration,
reunion lunch and dinner
the visiting and all, it was really fun

my vocab is so limited
that i describe everything as fun and great
but it really was SUPERB

gambling really sucks
and yet is so adrenalin-rushing
i was winning like $30 but then i lost it all
so i went back with the exact same amount as what i had

i havent even touched my homework
in fact, i dont even know wad homework we have

my mind isnt in a very proper state now
so i'll just leave my blogging till here

and people, don't make me feel so jealous!

20th feb

2007-02-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

i saw that star again.
the very same one i saw that time,
and like the last time,
i made a wish

star light star bright
first star i see tonight
wish i may wish i might
have the wish i wish tonight

honestly, its been really hard to talk to you of late
and i really missed the way we could just talk to each other
about anything and everything under the sun like we used to

the last time i wished upon a star,
my wish came true

will my wish come true again?

19th feb

2007-02-19T03:22:00.000+08:00

its three in the early morning of the second day of CNY
and i cant get to sleep.

at the reunion dinner and the visiting of relatives,
we've been talking bout the past and how everyone and everything has changed,
probablly cause the present isnt worth talking about

this year's celebration seems a little weird and different
cause many people are missing,
whatever the reason behind it
and somehow, it just doesn't seem like one whole complete family anymore

i'm currently staying over at my cousin's place

and it sure brings back many memories

you could say my cousin and i grew up together in a way

i havent seen him since last year and now it seems like we've all grown up

sure, coming back here makes me feel all nostalgic

16th feb

2007-02-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

before the day ends,
Happy birthday choo!

today was so darn great (:

15th feb

2007-02-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

i forgot to blog about our soccer match yesterday
guess i was too engrossed about valentine's day that it slipped my mind

yesterday we played against st. gabriel
which is a really strong school
we drew nil-nil with them

but that means we are one step closer to the next round
just a draw in the next match against clementi woods
and we'll proceed to the next round
but of course, we're looking to trash them
hopefully by then, my ankle would be fully recovered
and i'll be 100% fit for the match

on to another thing now,

i know the netball girls lost to cedar girls yesterday and were knocked out of the competition
and i can tell that many of them are very sad
but to all netballers, cheer up okay?
you've done fairfield proud
and continue cheering for team FSW (:
thanks for supporting us in every match!

CNY is coming, which is a good thing
cause i so need to catch up with my beloved cousins
its been so long since i last saw them
but it'd also mean i'll put on weight
with all the you tiao and ba kua
and pineapple tarts and chocolate and all the yummy goodies,
i'm bound to put on at least 3 kg (i really hope not)

speaking about weight, i realised that the weighing machine in school is a fat cheater
it showed 70kg the other time
but i checked on an accurate weighing machine just yesterday and it showed 65kg!
that may be good, but it also means i'm nearly underweight based on the
percentage height weight chart thingy

daddy came back from indonesia today
he went there on a business trip and also to visit my grandma's grave
since it was the mourning period thing which i was supposed to go
till now, i haven't seen her or visited her grave yet.
the last time i met her, she was still alive ):
i even missed her funeral
gosh, i feel quite sad actually.

but then there are so MANY things to look forward to!
like looking forward to seeing her soon (i hope)
and choo's birthday which is tomorrow
it's gonna be a blast tmr man!

i so can't wait!

14th feb

2007-02-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

its valentine's day,
not a day i usually like
cause it burns a big fat hole in my pocket

and there was no exception this year
except that this year's valentine's day was really the best

i didn't want to blog about this previously as it would spoil the surprise
but i baked cookies with bryan and wesley last sunday
it was really rather disastrous,
but considering it was the first time any of us ever baked, it turned out pretty well
they left about 10 plus that night
but i continued baking till 1am
or rather re baked EVERYTHING till 1am
cause i realised that it was rather soft and not at all like cookies
so i rebaked the whole batch of cookies, which was 4 whole packets,
roughly about 130 of em.
but some of it got burnt in the process, and others out of shape,
so we were left with about 100.

and back to today.

thanks for all the valentine's day gifts everyone!
i'm not gonna name out all cause its totally a LOT!
thanks people and special thanks to her!
her gift to me was the BEST!
i shan't say what, but it wasn't something tangible

hoped you enjoyed your BIG surprise
(sorry if the handwriting in the card was messy,
i had to write it in the cab cause the actual card dropped out somewhere)

ahh.. i think i've fallen in love (:
SMILES

13th feb

2007-02-13T19:31:00.000+08:00

screams!
my com is so cocky
i cant seem to view blogs with addresses that begin with "-"
like maple's and sihui's ones
someone help me

i dont like my english teacher
not one bit
she makes me do things like writing my name on 10 pieces of paper
just cause i forgot to write it when i handed up a previous work
also she makes us do corrections for essays!
but its not the normal corrections, she makes us write out the word we spelt wrongly
like i spelled "where" as "were"
so i had to write "where" ten times
omg, and we're sec 4s!
like hello, go back and teach the primary school man!
and her lessons are not at all interesting or engaging
and she teaches us stuff that have no relevance at all
and she has this stuck up attitude i so cant stand
i want miss MANO back!

haha enough bitching for now.

i cant wait for tomorrow!
haha its gonna be a BIG day

i can sense the excitement already (:

12th feb

2007-02-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

*SMILES with teeth showing*
choo really gave it to me
but a fake one though
cheater! but i still love it
haha

as childish as it may sound,
it really makes me a happy boy for now (:

12th feb

2007-02-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

indeed, he is the God of miracles!

i came to school, and somehow, within that short frame of 30 mins,
finished nearly 3 quarters of the homework
the other one was due after recess
so i found myself with ample time to get it done

i came to school feeling lousy bout myself
english started and i thought i would just die,
since english lessons were seriously boring
then i stepped into the class,
and my teacher had this totally different haircut
and she straightened her hair and it made me chuckle
then she told us to get ready for our presentation
which as usual, my group didnt do anything at all

so we came out with this crap story that we did it on floppy disk
and since her laptop didnt have a floppy drive
we were made to present tomorrow

then the funny thing that cheered me up was karan's group and their
downright hilarious skits
karan said he bombed parragon instead of the pentagon
and he went on about his funny nonsense

the rest of the day went rather smoothly

but the thing that made my day the most was the time spent
with my boyfriend, choo and kiefer
we went to pick up some last minute gifts for valentine's day

and the best part is,
choo owes me SOMETHING (:
lala, not gonna say wad it is
but i seriously DOUBT if she would give it to me

came back to school
by then, it was raining and fairfield was leading 5 goals to 1
against clementi woods
but due to the continuous pouring,
the match was called off and would be rescheduled

but nevertheless, today has taught me that miracles do happen

oh plus i got posted to kanchanburi for my overseas learning trip
along with 13 other ppl from my class
and a lot of other great ppl
so its gonna be great!

i miss the wake up calls
and sweet late night messages that
i would wake up to the next morning

11th feb

2007-02-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

i'm totally drained out completely
mentally, physically and maybe even spiritually
i swear if i live another day like this,
i'll either have a mental break down
or my body will just faint

im living this few days like a show
but when the curtains close
and i'm back in my room, no one knows wad goes through my head

argh
it been an emotional weekend for me
strangely, i'm looking forward to the weekdays.
hopefully, it'd put my out of my misery

i've got a match tmr,
and i feel bad that i cant even play due to my stupid ankle
hopefully, we'll win and it'd make me feel a lot better

wad's the main reason behind this feeling?
i don't know man!
is just a mixture of everything

and plus with valentine's day round the corner,
that same feeling is haunting me again
and again.

shoo, go away
you're making me sad

oh gawd
i havent even touched my homework

it will be a miracle if i live through tomorrow
and a bigger one if tomorrow gets even the slightest bit better

11th feb

2007-02-11T08:02:00.000+08:00

it was so perfect
it was flawless
yes, it was beautiful

but then i woke up.

drats. it was just a dream

10th feb

2007-02-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

today was quite an adventurous day actually
and it was rather fun

but my day turned bad
with a little incident that made me feel kinda lost once again

sigh.

i'm in no mood to blog honestly

9th feb

2007-02-09T19:56:00.001+08:00

for the second time this week,
i headed straight home after school
i was suppose to be present in the hall after school for the release of the O levels results
but i was just too tired
so i sneaked out of school and caught the bus home
and as you would have expected,
i went home to sleep.
haha

i just LOVE to sleep

anyway my wallet was stained with liquid paper today
all thanks to spencer
ahh! there goes my pretty pretty wallet ):

i'm supposed to be at vivo city now
but i knew if i go, and i would be tempted to buy stuff for myself
and i promised myself there would be no buying of stuff for myself until chinese new year is over
so i decided to stay at home instead

i think my body clock is kinda screwed now
my sleeping times are like during school and afternoons
but in the night i'm wide awake

And we feel like rain,
when the words all sound the same
as the curtain closes on another day.

8th feb

2007-02-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

something stupid just happened to me.

i went straight home after school today
cause i was so d-e-a-d tired
the moment i saw my bed,
i just dropped onto it and slept

and then, daddy woke me up for dinner at 830
i got off the bed thinking it was tomorrow morning
opened the cupboard, took my uniform
and then when i look into the mirror,
i was still in my school uniform
then i realised it was only dinner time!
haha

you know these few weeks in eng,
we've been doing about education and its purpose
and how you can learn so much outside school as well,
so, i came to this decision.

I'm gonna quit school and be a ROCK STAR

like that will ever happen.

oh and i got bored of my friendster profile so i updated it
to be a little less rubbishy than before

i'm still feeing HIGH ♥

7th feb

2007-02-07T22:39:00.001+08:00

despite the fact that i cant play for about 2 weeks
and that i have to limp like a bai ka for quite a while
and that i failed my ss test

i'm a happy boy today (:
big SMILES

lalala

nth can spoil my mood

6th feb

2007-02-06T18:03:00.000+08:00

suddenly, i feel like smiling
haha but dont ask me why! i wont tell (:

plus i thought liverpool fans might wanna have a look at this:

Liverpool captain Steven Gerrard admits United are looking increasingly unlikely to slip up in the Premiership title race.

"You’ve got to say United are starting to look unstoppable," he told the official Liverpool website.

it surely speaks for itself.

6th feb

2007-02-06T16:58:00.000+08:00

i came to school today only at 11
and i came limping like an idiot with crutches
(or crutch cause i only had one side)
and i could have sworn the whole world was staring at me
it was seriously so so embarrassing

and then after school i went to this chinese physician at orchard
to tend to my injury
and you know how in chinese shows you see physicians twisting the patient's leg
its exactly what happened!
she cracked my leg like a million and one times
and it was so pain i could have died
and its not because i have a low threshold of pain okay!

then she injected the swollen part with some needle without anesthetic at all
like 20 odd times so that the blood could ooze out and subside the swelling
then she used some mud thingy, applied it on a huge plaster like thing
and pasted it on my leg

surprisingly, the pain eased a little i could walk a little better
but still with a limp

and to those who have been encouraging me and stuff
thanks a lot!
it seriously meant a lot to me and made my day a whole lot better

5th feb

2007-02-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

i'll come clean and make no excuses wad so ever
i played like shit and i screwed up today
and i embarrassed myself in front of the whole school
but more importantly, i let the team down

despite that,
we still won 4-1 and i'm really proud to be in this team
and its funny that despite of my crap performance today
i still got injured quite seriously

but i'll get over it and like wad wesley said,
i'll get back on my feet for the next game

i hereby promise that
for the next match and all the matches to come
i will put in my all and play to my best

sigh

i really do wanna hear your voice so bad

4th feb

2007-02-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

i've never said this before,
but i'm proud to be called a singaporean

oh yeah,
singapore won!
they fought really hard and they deserved it

okay the next thing to look forward to
is tmr's game against bendemeer
i'll turn in early tonight
tmr's a big day

4th feb

2007-02-04T16:21:00.000+08:00

so back to what i was saying last night/early this morning,
i spent 14 hours out yesterday
that's more than half the day!

i have a weird habit of reaching places early
and i dont know why!
my drum started at 1pm and by 1130, i was already at orchard!
so i walked the whole of orchard road till i reached plaza sing,
occasionally, popping into shops to look at stuff,
all by myself ):

and after my lesson, i was supposed to meet wesley and terrance at 2
but when i called them, they were at their house bus stop
so i walked all the way back to far east to meet them

it was suppose to be a trip to get valentine's day presetns
but i bought a shirt instead
i told myself i wasnt gonna buy anything
but i couldnt help it
so now, i'll have to cut down on valentine's day presents
haha

so we did our usual crappy guy things like stalking ppl
and laughing crazily over stupid jokes
blah blah
until it was times up for them to meet their erm other friends
haha

i tagged along with wesley and sop
then we went to some jammin place at clarke quay
to meet other ppl
i have no idea wad i was doing there
but it turned out quite fun,
esp with grayson's magic tricks
and wesley's out of tune singing
haha

then i took a bus home and reached home only at 12 30
but slept only at 3am

and i slept for a measly 5 hours or so
and today my parents came home late from their morning exercise
so i had my breakfast late
and like a chain reaction, i was late for church
(reminds me of chain rule in differentiation which i so hate)
and with that lack of sleep,
i realised i was blabbering quite a lot of crap during small group
which wasnt my usual reserved self

then we went for lunch at this paranakan restaurant
which was quite good

then i followed my sister to wisma to buy tix for phantom of the opera
and tried on a pair of jeans at top shop which was bleah!
totally not for me

and so, i'm back in the comfort of my home
and going to sleep now,
hopefully, till the singapore thailand match begins!

go singapore (:

4th feb

2007-02-04T00:58:00.000+08:00

gosh, im dead tired after spending more than 14 hours out today
and i cant work my brain to remember what i did today

but what i do know is that mummy got my ipod fixed
:D
thanks mummy!

1st feb

2007-02-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

dammit
sometimes i feel like a jackass
and i dont wanna trust anyone anymore
and i just wanna screw the whole world

but then,
they'll always be these small little things which cheer me up
and i'm really grateful for that
thanks

31st jan

2007-01-31T21:09:00.000+08:00

i shan't really say much today
i'll let the score speak for itself

fmss 5 - acsI 0

30th jan

2007-01-30T19:10:00.000+08:00

i love Tuesdays
cause we start the day with chapel service
followed by all the fun subjects
3 hours of mrs quah straight may seem like hell to some
but with all the band A retards who make class so fun
and all the lit goondoos, i quite look forward to it

got back my lit test
only got a 14/25
but no surprise man!
half the time in lit i'm either drawing rubbish or talking rubbish
or eating rubbish

what happened today after school was rather hilarious yet frightening
if you think of the consequences
but i shan't say wad happened cause it might cause more unwanted trouble
oh and we saw paul two hill on the bus
and he's shorter than me haha

sigh, i have two tests
and a match tmr

and choo i know you'll see this
thanks for the coffeee (:

prayer

2007-01-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

you know how much she means to me
i've always regarded her as my best friend, maybe more;
a sister

she was always there for me whenever i needed someone
she was there to cheer me up when i was down
she was a source of motivation for me in many ways
and now she still is all these and more

and you know that things havent been easy for her
especially between her boyfriend and her
and i know there's a lot of stress on her
from academics, to relationship problems and family problems as well
it really is tough on her

and to top things up, her granny is in the hospital
and i know how it feels to lose someone, forever
it really is painful and the feeling really sucks
so i pray you will protect her granny and give her the strength to
sustain through all these

amen.

28th jan

2007-01-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

sigh.
my ipod cant is so screwed it cant even be detected now
sobs,
its really hard living without my ipod

i was really bored of staying at home
so i went to holland with dawn after church
then went to queensway with wesley
he joined my family for dinner
haha and as usual he talked a lot of crap

so my day was gone just like that
and i havent touched homework at all

27th jan

2007-01-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

i woke up only at 1 plus today cause of yesterday's run
so half the day was gone
went over to rail mall for pizza with my sister
we came back home and she baked muffins while i went to bathe

then we went down to the new house
and it was nearly fully furnished
and it looks pretty with all the new furniture!

took a train down to orchard to meet wesley to get some PROPER shopping done
since yesterday was cut short due to spencer and kiefer's unwillingness
shopping with wesley beats shopping with most ppl a million and one times
mainly cause he's a fun loving guy, with the same passion as me
and has more or less the same taste as me (:

haha
you know he bought this shirt i wanted from topshop before i could
and since i didnt wanna get the same shirt, i didnt buy it.

then, i bought the shirt he wanted before he could
and since he didnt wanna get the same shirt, he didnt buy it

haha confusing right?

nevertheless, it was a fruitful and fun trip!
nothing beats shopping with wesley!
(well, almost nothing)

27th jan

2007-01-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling really tired
but not in the sleepy way but rather in the fatigue way

cross country was good
not only did i meet my target, i even surpassed it
i've got 13th position (:
yay!
but there wasnt a prize presentation today cause of the rain
so i didn't receive my medal

then i cabbed home with spencer to bathe
and while i was bathing, he was blasting my speakers
with out sort of sounds.

went to orchard to shop
and i made a wrong choice to go with spencer and kiefer
they so cant shop for nuts
80% of the time, they were hurrying me and wanting to go catch a moive
but still i managed to get a zara blazer which just looks so pretty

i'll skip thein between dramatic details
then we went for the class barbecue
and it rained
so a few of us secretly smuggled some food up to the house
and ate there along with some vodka and baileys

oh well, i must say today was quite fun
yet depressing at points

shucks.
im so awake, i'm gonna watch some naruto!